lexapro dreams

one of the side effects of Lexapro is that it makes your dreams weird, lucid and vivid.

I have been having strange dreams everynight, and everytime i fall asleep. The dreams seemed so real and bizarre. After waking up, I usually have to spend time trying to diverge dreams from reality. It's like it could be be mistaken for reality. I remember how dreams were before Lexapro, I wouldn't remember much and they weren't as lucid as ones I have now.

They are like in movies, always in technicolor, highly defined, and interesting. It's like going on different adventures every night. I still can remember what I dreamt this morning, its like a new memory when it really isn't.

I've been reading Lexapro forums online and some of their dreams turned in nightmares, some were just erratic. For me it's a mixture of reality and fantasy.

I was riding back south to Portland with my sister the other night, I got so sleepy and fell asleep without realizing it and jumped into a total vivid dream. I woke up and completely forgot that I was riding in a car in dark. I realized that I didnt sleep very long and it didnt take me long to get in dream state. It was like I left earth and into another realm and return.

I'm home. To my family, my babies and the Pacific Northwest. It's nice to come back after months of being in DC and breathe the fresh and crisp Northwest air. Although it took me some time to get used to being at home again and especially with all the free times I have from school.

I've gotten used to the medicine and it's definitely in my system now. I hate to say this but it's nice in a way to be stable for once. I still have the headaches and it usually goes away after an hour or two. I wonder if this is what persons without depression feels like? Less of ups and downs?

I talked to my mom tonight, and discovered that my mom is still has her ups and downs. I expressed how I felt about her support when I was going through the same thing, I felt like she didn't want to talk and avoided the topic. However I understood why she felt uncomfortable about this as I am her last child and the baby of the family. I can see how it became difficult for her to hear the fact that I am depressed too. I reminded her that I am twenty-six and no longer a child, we should be able to be open and tell each other things.

Yeah. I've decided. I have decided that I will extend my study to 3 years instead of two. This program is definitely lot to manage, and I cannot imagine what next semester will look for the rest of my classmates. I'm relieved because that'll mean less overwhelming and more of quality learning. It is kinda bitterweet because Im not graduating with the class that I entered with. I've gotten to know them better and have developed some friendships It'll be sad to see them leave. At least I am doing this for myself :)

Aside to 3-year program, Lexapro is finally kicking in. I've seen how I have been lately and from what happened yesterday. I lowered my dose from 20mg to 10mg couple of days after talking to Dr. and we both agreed that it would be better for me to take it at night since it had me very drowsy in the beginning.

So, yesterday I finally felt that the medicine was working...because 10 mg was wearing out on me, and I felt myself coming down with my emotions. One of my roomies was so stressed and frustrated from her day and that definitely affected me and my moods. I sure didn't see that coming. It felt so strange, yet familiar and made me realize that the medicine is definitely working. That's when I knew I had to increase my dose to 20mg, and I became stable again.

My therapist told me last week how I will need to relearn to what it's like to be myself again, since medicine gives clients new perspectives on things. And that it's good idea to write journals again, to see where I am going with my moods and recognizing feelings. It's an incredibly erratic experience.